Monday, October 7, 2013

Destination Unknown

What are you going to do next? 

That's the question people keep asking me. The current gig will be up in two weeks. As of today, my answer to that question is, "I don't know." 

I don't know what's next. I don't know where I'll be living. I don't know if it'll be another house sitting gig. Something temporary. Or something permanent. I simply don't know yet. 

I do know this: I am not worried. This entire process of living a gypsy life has required a whole lot of trust and letting go. And for someone who likes to be in control of a situation, that kind of trust doesn't normally come easily. I haven't been perfect at this. It has been a challenge in all sorts of ways. I have grown and continue to do so. I am learning. Learning to accept the unknown. 

I have never been good with unknowns. I like to know the why and the how of anything I do. I hate blindly doing things that make no sense whatsoever. And that's what almost kept me from embarking on this gypsy life in the first place. It was hard to see how leaving my little home that I loved made any sense at all. You may still be thinking that. 

Gypsy life has been like taking a giant trust fall with my entire life. 

When it has come to this gypsy life, I have learned that I just have to trust everything will work out. And so far, every aspect has. I'm not going to push the big red panic button now. And if you're worried about it, you shouldn't panic either. 

I am waiting. I am exploring my options. And I am trusting the next step will be clear at just the right moment. 

And if you need more proof that I'm just fine, here's a word from my Dove dark chocolate today:   

You are exactly where you are supposed to be. 

Affirmation may have come from Dove today, but I trust in the One who created me and gave me this crazy, gypsy life. And that's who I'm trusting through this process. I am confident that the one who can walk on water isn't going to jump out of the boat the moment I start to fall. 

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