Like last week, I am once again participating in the #SheSharesTruth linkup for Lent. This week we're taking a look at Psalm 38.
Sometimes when I read certain phrases seem to pop out of the page. In the Psalms, it usually has to do with waiting.
v. 15 "Lord, I wait for you; you will answer, Lord my God."
Waiting is a tough place to be.
Years ago, I was unemployed, or underemployed, for a very long time. I'm talking years. I had gone to school, and I had all the credentials, but I graduated at a very bad time economically. The journalism and publishing worlds were changing rapidly. There were few jobs to be had. Especially for someone with degrees in English. And every interview seemed to end with the hiring committee wanting someone with more experience. It was a rough, rough time.
My hope was shattered each time I didn't land the job in the final round of interviews. It got so bad that I had friends calling me from all over the country handing out advice before each interview. "Maybe you need to cut your hair. You'll look older," they'd tell me. "Be confident," they'd say. Or, "You have a nervous laugh," they'd warn. They really thought I was blowing it.
The thing I had to learn was it was temporary. My period of struggling was going to be temporary. I would eventually find a job. I wasn't always going to be living with my mom and dad and relying on others to house and feed me. When I recognized that, I was finally able to say, "If I'm still unemployed in 30 years, I'll have a really great book to write."
And it was temporary. I eventually landed a job and moved out of Mom and Dad's. (We were all doing the happy dance that day.)
But waiting isn't easy. And I'm finding out that waiting is something that never really ends. Once we get the thing we've been waiting for, there is always some other longing.
I went to a new doctor's office last week and had to check the box for single. If you'd asked me 5 years ago, if I thought I'd still be single at 31, my answer would have been, "No." But here I am.
Earlier this week, a friend who is going through her own waiting period was anxious and worried and feeling discouraged. "Wait," I told her. "It won't always be this way."
The Psalms tell us over and over and over again to wait. My favorite might be Psalm 27: 14.
"Wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."
If you're feeling discouraged in your waiting, read the Psalms. And remember, this is temporary.